I hope one day he’ll take this seriously. I hope one day I wont need to be angry anymore.
i wish i could do this my ear is just to small :[
(Source: hipppievibes, via bendmebackwards)
i had to give up so much and to be shot down like i just was hurts so bad. i know im going to be a good mother. even if i was alone in this, because i would love this child unconditionally. that is what will help me get by, just knowing that i can hold something that i love so much will be here soon is so motivating. yeah i’m 20 doesn’t mean i cant do it with or with out someone by my side. weather your beside me or not i will make a great mother. i don’t care if i have to work at drug store for the rest of my life, i will make it. i am strong. i will be strong, for myself and my baby boy. andrew cole i cant wait for you to be here so i can finally give you hugs and kisses, and give you everything you deserve. i love you so much <3
really starting to doubt that youll be a good father to this child. im fed up with your selfishness.
sometimes i wish i could go back in time, and see how things could have went if i choose differently. i dont deserve the things i go through most if not all of the time. im 20 and pregnant, and it seems that when it comes to me and the baby he doesnt care. im 31 weeks along and he should be staying almost every night, only because hes aloud to. it would be different if my parents didnt like him and told him he couldnt stay the night. but they want him to so he can take care of me, because he needs too. its not up to my parents to take care of me when i need to go to the doctor or when i have to go to the hospital. it worries me that he isnt serious because all he is worried about are cars. half of the time when i text him i dont get a respond, and when i call him he never ever answers. what happens when i go into labor in the middle of the night or when hes in the middle of work? im not going to text him im going into labor im going to call him so i dont wait for a response. not to mention he hasnt even informed his school or work about me being pregnant.
is he going to be the father his or mine wasnt to our baby? or is he going to just be selfish and just worry about him self like hes been doing? he comes over hours after getting off work or school. and when he even shows up theres something different he did with his truck. he doesnt understand that the money that hes spending on his toys is basically for the baby now. new headlights isnt going to do anything for the baby, that truck isnt going to do anything for the baby it has no back seats. our baby wont be able to go home from the hospital. all the money that hes spending could at least go to a new car that the baby can be transported in once hes here in the world. no on fancy lights and sounds. i love him so much but sometimes i wish i wasnt having his baby. i know thats bad to say, because i already love this child more than anything in the world. but at least if he was doing this like he is now if i wasnt pregnat, i dont think wed make it to our fourth anniversary let alone the next day.
STUCK
